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Where should I start Disjointed heart I’ve got no commitment To my own flesh and blood Left all alone Far from my home No one to hear me, to heal my ill heart, I Keep it locked up inside Cannot express To the point I’ve regressed If anger’s a gift, then I guess I’ve been blessed, I Keep it locked up inside Keep my distance from your lies

It's true
The way I feel
Was promised by your face
The sound of your voice
Painted on my memories
Even if you're not with me
I'm with you
Do or die
You'll never make me
Cause the world, will never take my heart
You can try, you'll never break me
Want it all,
I'm gonna play this part
Wont explain or say i'm sorry
I'm not ashamed,
I'm gonna show my scar
I'm unclean, a libertine
And every time you vent your spleen,
I seem to lose the power of speech,
Your slipping slowly from my reach.
You grow me like an evergreen,
You never see the lonely me at all
Blinded I am
And so are you
By shedding tears
Confusion that separates us two
We hold dear
Just look into my eyes Kiss our fears goodbye
I'm reaching for your shadow
Drowning in the kiss of dawn
Touching the pain that you left me with
At the kiss of dawn
No sleep
No sleep until I am done with finding the answer
Won't stop
Won't stop before I find a cure for this cancer
Sometimes
I feel I going down and so disconnected
Somehow
I know that I am haunted to be wanted
They say
That i must learn to kill before i can feel safe
But I
I rather kill myself then turn into their slave
Sometimes
I feel that I should go and play with the thunder
Somehow
I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder
I will dedicate
And sacrifice my everything for just a second's worth
Of how my story's ending
And I wish I could know if the directions that I take
And all the choices that I make won't end up all for nothing
Now I will tell you what I've done for you -
50 thousand tears I've cried.
Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you -
And you still won't hear me.
(going under)
Don't want your hand this time - I'll save myself.
Maybe I'll wake up for once (wake up for once)
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom
I'm dying again
We break our enemies with fear, and
we've seen how the tears come around
We've built our confidence on wasteland
We've seen how the walls come down
Life burns A man dies like a butterfly Life burns from the touch of the reaper All things must pass One love is a crooked lie The world lies in the hands of evil We pray it would last
Life burns
We have no sympathy for the lost souls
we've chosen the path of disgrace
We give this life to our children
and teach them to hate this place

It's not like you didn't know that
I said I love you and I swear I still do
And it must have been so bad
Cause living with me must have damn near killed you
This is me for forever
One of the lost ones
The one without a name
Without an honest heart as compass
This is me for forever One without a name These lines the last endeavour To find the missing lifeline
Walk the dark path
Sleep with angels
Call the past for help
Touch me with your love
And reveal to me my true name
Torn apart at the seams and my dreams turn to tears
I'm not feeling this situation
Run away try to find that safe place you can hide
The best place to be when you're feeling like ME
JUST BACK OFF BEFORE I SNAP AND YOU”LL SEE ME

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daffodil's Blog
Forgive me Father, for I am going to sin
May 24, 2008
All I ever wanted was love, all I ever got was pain...
You want to know real pain, you want to see it? Take a look into my eyes and you will...How much I loved them all, almost as much as they hurt me and what have I done about it? I forgive and done my best to forget, but I didn’t. Who said that time can erase anything? Who said that time heals wounds? You should tell him that he was wrong, wounds never heal, scars never disappear and pain changes you forever.
I given them chances after chances to love me, I’ve changed just for them, I’ve done all they asked me, but for no good, because they always wanted more and more and more... I was stupid enough to believe that I’m the one to blame, that I’m fool and bad and ugly and impossible to love and like this I’ve got to hate myself and keep on loving the others, keep on letting them to hurt me over and over again. Some way, some how I was never good enough for anyone, even when I wanted to die for the one I loved, even when I wanted to die because I thought that only without me they will be happy, that this world would be a much better place without me. What can you give more than your life for the ones you love??? I believe that nothing, but than why did they asked for more? So I keped on giving, and giving and receiving only pain... BUT THIS HAS COME TO AN END
I’m picking up the pieces that are left of me, thousands of small pieces, so small that you can build anything you want from them...I’ve decided to build a person that will never love again, that will never hurt again, a person that will hate and hurt all the ones that hurt her. It’s not going to be easy, but I’m going to do it, I have to hate them and I will make them pay for every single tear, for every single wound, for every single scream I keped inside all this years. This is the new me, numb to everything around me, feeding the hate with pain, and I have so much pain from my memories...
I’m going to be happy, even if I have to step on corpses on my path to happiness, even if that body will be yours. For all the ones that said that are my friends, that said that they love me, you should take some classes, you are bad actors... I don’t believe a word you tell me!!! Take care, the war has started and I’m going to win every battle...
For all the ones that I loved, for all the ones that hurt me, I wish you just one thing...IMMORTALITY






